Today

I was online around 2:40PM, hell dawasclos! Ow well, but this freaking weather is irritating. I was inside the bathroom taking a shower for most of my time to day, darn.
I haven't done anything to today, I'm so darn lazy. I didn't even catch someone today, didn't even leave me any message arg! Asaness urg! Bad romance is my LSS don't know why, but I recently appreciate this song..

The Climb

I can almost see it
That dream I am dreaming
But there's a voice inside my head saying
"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction
My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying
Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing
The chances I'm taking
Sometimes might knock me down
But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it
But these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah
Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong
Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain
I'm always gonna wanna make it move
Always gonna be a uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there
Ain't about what's waiting on the other side
It's the climb, yeah!

Then saw this "couple shirts" ang cute.. kaso hindi ata pwede sakin kase wala ko ka pair eh.. asaness.. asar..

aren't they cute??

Unfair

How many times do I have to realize, that I live in a cruel unfair world.
Hindi ako mareklamo pero minsan hindi ko mapigilan ng tabil ng bibig ko. Unfair na kase sobra. Simulan natin nung bata ako.
Hindi ako pwedeng maglaro ng pool kase babae daw ako sabi ng lolo ko pero ang mga kapatid ko pwede. Unfair.
Nung nagaaral ako, hindi daw ako pwede maging honor nun kase nasa section 2 lang ako kahit na mas mataas pa ung grade ko dun sa isa na nasa starsection at isa sa honor hindi daw pwede un. Unfair.
Hindi daw ako pwede magover night sa ibang bahay sabi ng tatay ko kase babae daw ako. Unfair.
Hindi ako pwedeng gumimik nung college kase hinihintay ako lagi ng tatay ko paguwi ko, pero ung dalawang kapatid kahit 3 araw mawawala sa bahay ok lng. Unfair.
Hindi ako tinuturuan magdrive kahit ng tatay ko pero ung kapatid ko ipageenrol pa sa driving school. Unfair.
I'm always mistaken for being a cold snobbish spoiled brat. Unfair.
Hindi ako pwede magtanong kahit na pagkakalaro lang ng bagay, kahit ganon din naman ginagawa nya sakin dati? UNFAIR!

Hmmmm... right..

"I don't know anyone who isn't haunted by something or someone. And whether we try to shove the pain with a knife or shove it at the back of the closet, our efforts usually fails. So the way we can clear out the cobwebs is to turn a new page or put an old story finally to rest."

"Never allow yourself to be treated as nothing by another person whom you valued so much. If there's no sense in waiting, then move on. If you feel you're not valued by that person like you do then let go. That's life."

MU

Wag ka masyadong magexpect o magdemand. Wala kayong commitment.
Pwede ka naman magselos, pwede ka magtampo pero hindi ka pwedeng magalit.
Pwede mo siya lambingin, pwede mong yakapin
at pag nalaman mo na may girlfriend siya pwede ka umiyak.
Pwede ka masaktan pero di mo siya pwedeng sumbatan, wala ka karapatan.
At yan ay dahil ang M.U. ay isang Magulong Usapan.

Insensitive

Darn, 6 bottles of Red Horse, kung ano ano na nga pinagtetetetext ko kay Jill.. Hindi mo pa rin magets kung bakit! Yes I won't admit it but I'm waiting for your text or in what ever way you want to contact me. Malas ko lng kase kung kelan ako sumasama sa mga agent ko sa inuman o nagyayaya whatever tska ka pa nagparamdam. Malas ko noh super.. Ilan araw ko na kinukulit ung isa to know kung nag tetext ka manlang tapos ka malas ko wala pa ko sa bahay ng pwede ka..
Then hindi mo magets kung bakit ako ganon magreply sayo?! Nak ng pulang kabayo naman oh.. hindi pa ba obvious un.. wag mo naman ako ipahiya sa sarili ko.. kung pinagtatawanan mo ko sa pinagsasasagot ko sayo hell I care. Kung naguguluhan ka, dude naman obvious naman kung bakit diba?! Kung galit ka, eh peste, bahala ka, magsama kayong dalawa. I drink 6 bottles of Red horse but I'm not drunk, alam ko mga sinasabi mo at sinasagot ko. Kung hindi mo magets kung bakit, bahala ka.. I waited almost 4 days for you to contact me tapos sasabihin mo sakin na marami ka naman pwede kausapin if ever, wow dude sana nagsquare na lang tayo eh noh :rofl:

Fellas

I was aware for more than 24 hours from 7PM Friday night until 4AM Sunday morning but I had fun. From toxic Friday shift in the office (as me and other QCs call it.) I went to Gateway Mall to meet the Fellas, Jah was not there but its ok, meron pa next time diba Ja? Kala ko mawawalan na ko ng boses sa pagvivideoke namin mahigit 3 oras. Taob lahat ng pumapalit sa kabilang cubicle na ka ilang group na ang gumamit sa katabi namin videoke room sa Timezone kame matibay parin. Reminiscing Total Eclipse of the Heart, Halik, Luha, Flames, Kaba, Almost over you, Stupid love, Fame at maraming pangiba ang binanatan namin, naadik na nga kme sa amoy ng iba't ibang flvor ng popcorn diba Nikki hahahah.. Darn kala ko talaga mawawalan ako ng boses ng isang linggo after nun, nagalala tuloy ako sa Quality Talk naks! Sana sa mga makakapanood ng scandal na ipopost ni Lois, sana respetuhin parin ako ng mga ahente ko hahahaha. Pero may part 2 yan mga video na yan kase next time kumplato na tropa hindi na pwede mawala di jaja.. hehehe..
Anyway ayun nga after nun nakatulog ata ng less than 1hour kase nagising ako hindi ko alam kung bakit but what I know is I talk to someone til 4am after that.
PEACE YAH ALL!

For..

carefully I let you go
hurting from being alone
reasons I been keeping so
inside my mind are doubts on
someone I've been waiting for..

Bloopers

Darn, had a good laugh before I left the office and can't get over it. I'll share it to you guys.
I'm working in a callcenter for almost 4 years now. I know there are a lot of bloopers when an agent were taking calls. I'm one of the contributors for some funny conversation with Americans when I was an agent taking calls. Well, I'm very aware of bloopers in the callcenter but I just can't get enough of it specially now that I'm one of those wiretapper, eavesdropper, know-it-all-attention seeker who listens to other peoples recorded conversation, trust me you'll get bored of eavesdropping on someone's conversation but when you luckily spot an awesome blooper darn you'll cry laughing. I'll share those two I remember by heart because I listen to it recently :rofl:.
First is a call from my previous agent (let not name names ok!). Agent got the call and ask for the name. The customers last name is Callaghan, the caller pronounce it as Cal-uh-han. The agent was able to pull up the record and called the customer "Ok Mr. Ka-laghan this.." with Filipino accent then through out the conversation the agent pronounce it as "Mr. Ka-Lag-Han" darn, Janice and I can't stop laughing when we heard it. (I know I'm evil, Sorry).
Second is a call I listened to earlier. The customer called in and stated her inquiry on the call. The agent pulled up the information on the system, it showed that the account is under Patron White but the caller's name is Veronica Carrillo. So as per policy the agent needs to ask for the name on the account, verification. So the conversation goes..
Agent: May I ask for the name on the account please?
Caller: Patron Silver
Agent: And I'm speaking with?
Caller: Veronica Carrillo
Agent: Is the account holder there?
Caller: I'm the account holder, I ask to put Patron White when I got this coz I want that name to appear when coz I don't when other people to see my name. You know Patron White is a liquor..
Agent: Ok, so can I speak to Mr. Parton Silver? (harharhar)
Caller: I'm the account holder, I just ask that name to be use on my account.
Agent: Ok, I understand, so how can I help you Ms. Silver?

Me listening while Laughing out loud, relayed the story to Janice we both rolled on the floor laughing(not literally heller).. darn this is what I love on my job, its exhausting but I could still go home smiling, I mean laughing hahahaha..
PEACE YAH ALL

Magic

Magic by Colbie Caillat

You've got magic inside your finger tips
its leaking out all over my skin
everytime that i get close to you
your makin me weak with the way you
look through those eyes

And all i see is your face
all i need is your touch
wake me up with your lips
come at me from up above
yeaaaa, oh i need you

I remember the way that you move
your dancin easily through my dreams
its hittin me harder and harder with all your smiles
you are crazy gentle in the way you kiss

All i see is your face
all i need is your touch
wake me up with your lips
come at me from up above

Oh baby i need you
to see me, the way i see you
lovely, wide awake in
the middle of my dreams

And all i see is your face
all i need is your touch
wake me up with your lips
come at me from up above

Nothing much.. sound trip mode..

Start

50 minutes jog on my treadmill, 1 glass of tea and a slice of tikoy were my breakfast earlier, before I open my pc and check my facebook harharhar. I've been struggling to lose weight for 2 years now darn, I'm not this fat since I started working in this free meal company. I weigh 105 lbs when I started April of '06 then 2 years later I started gaining weight until now darn darn darn! I was able to maintain it late 2008 but why can't I lose these fats now. :sigh: :depress:..
My grandma, mom and aunt are teasing me that I could no longer go back to my 105lbs self like before huhuhu.. But I wont give up. Treadmill everyday, water, lots and lots of water and avoid the chocoflooded space of Bogs' pedestal lol!

Twist

I never thought about jumping into a cold lake at night, me without knowing how to swim, we'll not literally.
I came across someone today, never thought that I'll ever talk to him again since the time he decided to "forget" about me another way of saying "bye". Hell, that time, I switched my selective memory ON. But a few months later, I realize a lot of things. I can't just simply follow my emotional self, she won't show me the right way. I can't just simply forget what had happened before, coz I just simply can't unless magkamnesia ko. I can't just believe someone until I uncover the truth and talk to the people/person concern. I can't assume on things because I might seeing the opposite side of reality.
I want to ask a lot of things earlier but he got to go. We'll I guess it's not yet time to clear things up, hope that it's not yet time and not at all. I just what to talk about what had happened even though I know where the conversation would lead to hayz.. life.. can't get enough of drama.
I just remembered, he always say that he can't read my mind but does anyone know how to? Coz I would kill to learn, seriously. Lol.
Anyway, I don't know if that's an excuse or what but as I've mention no one I know could read minds. Its up to you if you want to know what the person is thinking and its up to the person if they would tell whats in their head (the top most, lol).
Hayz.. I want to talk to him but I don't know any way to do so or I might not have the same courage to talk to him again.. But why am I having this feeling that I wouldn't have any chance to see, catch or talk to him again..