A Yuletide Poem

Christmas

A reflection of one's soul

On a single Christmas ball

Hanging on the tree so tall

There, at the end of an empty hall

Then, everything became familiar

Laughters and cheers fill the air

Children are singing everywhere

While some are wrapping gifts to share

Colorful Christmas lights in every corner

Simple decorations are every where

This is the only time they feel life is fair

Without thinking if someone does care

A little girl is sitting by the window

Watching people come and go

She notice a girl held by her father

And gazed as they walk away together

Then tears fell down as she opened her eyes

It’s sad to be alone and now she realize

Santa couldn't grant the only wish she asked

Because even He cannot bring them back.

Written December 18, 2010

Last poem I was able to write last year lol!

For..

Sorry friend I'm not in the mood to write, so I'll just share this hehehe..

Letting You Go
By Mariann Estaniel

Your sincere words, your sweet smile,
The way you talk to me makes me blind.
You always come in when my world falls apart.
You held the key to my broken heart.
But that was then, this is now.
I really thought we'd make it somehow.
But I guess things between us are just not meant to be.
I'm not right for you, and you're not the one for me.
The thought of letting you go breaks my heart.
'Cuz in my life, you play an important part.
It's so hard for me to give up on you.
For giving up on love is something I don't do.
But I have to face reality, everything has changed.
It's all over, things are not the same.
You're with someone else now, and I am free.
I'm free to move on and go where I want to be.
It's really time for me to let you go.
So here I am, ready to let you know,
That I'm so thankful to have you even for a while.
I'm stronger now, I'm not going to cry.
Because when you left me, I realized that I was strong.
Those days of you and me are all over.
But it's something I would really remember.
It's one of the precious moments of my past.
Though I knew in my heart that it wouldn't last.
In my heart you'll be kept in a special place.
The memory of you will never be erased.

I don't really agree on that girlfriend.. coz according to you people I'm the masochist/martyr type that's why I would prefer this peom..

Still Here Waiting For You
by Tinydancer46

As I look into your eyes
I can't seem to look away
I get lost into the moment
Each and every day

You thought I didn't like you
You thought that I moved on
But to tell you the total truth...
My feelings aren't gone

I'm still here, still waiting
For us to finally be
I'll stay here for as long as it takes
For you to be with me

I'm still here inside your heart
I'll never give up on you
You'll never find anyone else
Who loves you like I do

I'm still here just waiting
For you to finally realize
I'm still here waiting for you to see me
How I see you through my eyes

Hell for false hopes.. wahahaha.. misha guys..

For..

carefully I let you go
hurting from being alone
reasons I been keeping so
inside my mind are doubts on
someone I've been waiting for..

Behind

A prisoner of anger and hatred
Misunderstood by people he met
Alone in life and never been wanted
Bitterness of life he won’t forget

The pain of being left behind
In this cruel world, full of lies
Has been suffering for being blind
From the truth, all through this life

A cry of someone about to die
No drop of tear fall from her eyes
It's only seen on her weary smile
A wounded soul in agony hides

-written Jan 27, 2010

Update lol

Gosh ang tagal ko na pala hindi napagkaabalahan ang blog ko.. September pa ung last ko post..
Dami na bago hindi ko pa na update.. pero wala ko maisip na isulat..
Medyo busy kase sa kakapakinig sa usapan ng ibang tao kaya ganon hehe..
pero ill post na lang mga ilan ko nasulat instead.. saka na ko magkukwento ng bonggang bongga.. lol..
Kaya balik muna tayo sa Haiku, nagawa ko habang nagtetraining kame, juice ko last year pa ito hehehe.. sa sobarang kabagutan yan na lang pinagkaabalahan ko. Pagpasensiyahan ninyo na ulit at pagtiyagaan ninyo na lang..

Haiku Part III

Let go of the past
For today don't worry much
Surely it'll be a blast

***
You hold too much grudge
Thinking that they judge you much
How long will it last?

***
The pain in goodbyes
Each person will try to hide
Though broken inside

Eto naman first poems na nasulat ko for 2010.
January 04, 2010 to be specific.

Haiku Part IV

For the longest time
I have longed for your presence
Life from your absence

***
I thought I lost you
And never have realized
How much I've missed you

***
Locked in this darkness
Searching the light for ages
The key, happiness

***
To begin an end
Will have to take one's courage
Face what lies ahead

Haiku Part II

Haiku Part II

A day of bad luck
Gnaw me blindly to pitch-black
As scars to remind

***

Anger in his core
Revenge he craves even more
In his eyes avow

***

Loudness of silence
Calmness of raging fury
Scorching behind me

- written June 17, 2009

Haiku

I've written a couple of Haikus, I ask PadrePio(symb) to check it because I'm new to this format I want someone who I know is familiar with such, before posting it. I never thought it would be an issue for some. I tried explaining my side, I never intended to offend other people.
I was just up to the challenge and learning those kinds of format really inspired me alot.
Oh well, moving forward. I never thought Padre would like my haikus. Subok lang kase un, I need thought of impressing him, I just wanted him to check it and tell me kung nakuha ko ng tama ung idea ng haiku. Hindi kase ko ganon ka familiar dun. But he did liked it and ask me to post it na and I did. Thanks for the challenge and help Padre. And certainly I'll keep on writing..

So heres 3 of them.. I've written about 5 haikus I think.

A stormy cold night
Flameless candle as my light
In this room I hide

***

Today I woke up
With a desire to be loved
By this selfish life

***

Dark clouds in the sky
Sign of rain, pouring anytime
Washing trace of lies

-written June 17, 2009

How

How dark is black
If one can't see
Through a child's eyes
So blissful with glee

How warm is a hug
For a lonely orphan
Longing to be loved
And cherished by someone

How loud is the silence
In this crowded room
If no one listens
In any of the tune

How painful is the wound
With no bloodstains
Instead, traces of tears
From the eye remains

How someone can be so cruel
Not to understand at all
How can selfishness rule
Inside somebody's soul

-written June 05, 2009

Wanderer II

Dahil marami naapektohan dito Wanderer minabuti kong sundan ang kalokohang ito.. Again, hindi po ako obit. Para iyan sa isang kaibigan, isinulat ko lang ung nakita ko sa sitwasyon niya, tama po na isang tao lang ang tinutukoy ko. Di ko sinasadya na maapektohan ang iba at makarelate sila hehehe.. kaya para sa inyo, dinugtungan ko.. [ang kulit ko rin eh noh hahaha]

Wanderer II

A dream he thought he already got
Had vanished in just a single snap
Memories that he carefully trapped
Seems vague and slowly being unwrapped

The moment his princess walked away
Saying, things are changing day by day
Nothings seems to matter as of today
Now he's breaking more than yesterday

Her sweet voice he constantly remembers
Now in his ears, is like a roaring thunder
Hearing those painful words she uttered
Makes him bleed and wounded deeper

A part of his life had gone meandering
He cannot dwell on sadness and hurting
One could only help himself to keep on hoping
Happiness is a choice that is worth keeping

The future ahead of him looked so blurry
And that's the beauty of life, one shouldn't worry
Coz he knows, it just ended in a tragic story
But now is the beginning of his new journey

-written June 05, 2009

Thoughts - My life

I just can't find time to write. I have this pending part 2 poem that I can't seems to finish. I know I'm busy for a couple of weeks now but when ever I'm thinking about my schedule.. hmmm.. how do I manage to keep on writing before even though I got load of things to do as well.. Is it my task or I just can't find any inspiration or its just me.. I usually write about my self so why am I "somekindaloosing" time for it.

Heres the list of my window and tabs on my computer desktop at work.. (links) and I manage to check each and evertime, well I have to..
1. CAP
2. VKB Hardware
3. VKB 360
4. 4 word documents (service, logs, templates, troubleshooting)
5. msn mail (I send emails a lot, every second whew!)
6. Loisse's outlook
7. 3 Excel files (schedule, ACD, tracker)
8. An ebook (depende what book I wanted to read if I could)
9. Google hehehe
10. Symbianize (if i have time :lol:)
11. notepad (I use for writing my kalokohan)
[ill attach a screen shoot tom. ill printout my office desktop so ull see the idea]
Whew! thats the reason why my office pc hangs a lot.. hahahaha.. but those are what I do while informt of my pc at work.. while I hold tons of papers if my jogging around ELJ's 6th floor to do printing, photo copying, signing papers, talking to RTA, talking to loisse, to coy, to ceejay or to somebody else hahaha.. busy huh..

At home.
1.Yahoo msg
2. Symbianize
3. msn mail (I have to keep track)
4. Facebook
5. Reastaurant city (FB)
6. Farm toen (FB)
7. Blogger
8. Deviantart
9. mybrute
10. mediafire
11. photobucket
12. google
13. mydocs

Whew! I multitask? Certainly, a talent I learned from working ina callcenter and having home and office pcs as my buddies hehehe..
oh well I guess I just have to manage my time for me to hae time in writing..
hhmmm...

My life

In a dark hole I dive
Not knowing what's inside
This time I wont elide
In my mind I must survive

I know I must be strong
Even if, things goes wrong
Now, here is where I belong
Something I'm willing to hold on

A very unpredictable cycle
This enigmatic life I handle
Simple, bald but unusual
My so-called life I fondle

-written June 04, 2009

Ménage

With a pair of bloodshot eyes
From a dark alley I hide
Trying to read each mind
As I survey people, who pass by

Then a group catches my attention
With their presence and certain action
I caught myself attentively listening
To their laughters, as if hiding something

Then suddenly I found myself in the circle
Sitting and hearing each soul's whisper
Each face masked a unique individual
In their eyes reflects a precious jewel

An unparalleled character each holds
Makes me wonder and anxious to unfold
For me to search and discover their name
How each person differs as they play a game

Each day with a prize of trust we earned
Respect to each other we have yearned
Seeing those smiles as we all gather around
Of which I vow to protect every single one

A surprise I soon recognize and uncover
I'll carry a bond of each in my heart forever
They fill the hollow part of my daily routine
Something we shared that nobody had ever seen

-written April 22, 2009

Haven't written for quite sometime, don't know busy I guess..
wala sa mood. So I checked my files, I remember this poem. Papa ask me to write a peom for him. At usually pag ang inask sakin I try to portrait that I'm the person who's asking me to write something for him/her. Kaya madalas kung hindi ko masyado kakilala ung nagask sakin may interview portion muna. I guess I read his innner thoughts through that poem.
Yan ung nagawa ko hindi ko lang alam bakit hindi pa ginagamit ni papa..hahaha..

Wanderer

A restless flight
Of this lonely knight
Hoping he would find
The happiness of his life

Every night he wonders
If its time to surrender
All those memories he gathered
Until this moment he utters

Like a dream that came true
The day he met her, he knew
She's his princess, he longed for
Until his life is through

Then she left him for someone
Telling him, he have done none
But the feelings are all gone
Coz she thinks he's not the one

Then he utters "We're better off this way,
You, letting me go and setting me free
Now, I have to go and walk away,
Even though it's breaking me."

-written April 12, 2009
madami nagrereact na friends ko na lalaki dito sa sinulat ko.. hmmm..
affected? wala na naman ako pinatatamaan dito, when I wrote this binase ko lang siya kay mikeyl.. his the one who ask me to write him a pome about him self..

Chance

I had my heart wounded deeply
But now I'm coping slowly
I'm starting a new journey
To try and write my own story

It's another ordinary day for me
After a period of solitude, now I'm free
Walking in this hallway briskly
Looking forward to everyday with glee

But out of nowhere you came
Then, it's no longer the same
Your smile rattled my game
And turned my world insane

This anxiety inside my core
In search for the one I adore
Vision of you that I can't ignore
It's your presence I longed for

I just wanted to get to know you
Look at you until the day is through
I'm hoping you'll notice all the clue
That, my pure intentions are true

-written May 09, 2009
by request ni mikeyl para daw sa kras niya, hmm hindi niya masyado gusto so I think I need to revise it. pero wala pa ko sa mood mag sulat, pasensiya..
but I love my poem kaya post ko muna dito.. thanks sa mga nakaappreciate..

Again, the anguished masked

I got 4 poems na nasa chinkzode ko pero wala dito sa blog ko.. hmmm...
Sige update natin.. lagay ko ung 3..
Confession - these are all about me and no one else. It's some kinda "time table" of what happened, I guess.. harhar!

Anguish

A sleepless night,
For a restless soul.
With gloomy lights,
In this dark hall.

Staring blankly,
With a cluttered mind.
Her eyes were lonely,
Of memories unkind.

Bloody tears flow,
From an empty stare.
Now left in the shadow,
Broken beyond repair.

All these sorrow,
Shattered her core.
Hoping that morrow,
Would ease the sore

-written March 25, 2009

Masked

Silently she dwell
Here in a dark cell
A place like hell
She blend so well

Never did she tried
To unlock her mind
Share what's behind
That intuition she hide

Once, she had risked
To an emotional frisk
Then suddenly she fell in
But lose the game of flirting

No trace of teary eyes
Nor forced weak smile
Though she's breaking inside
Beneath a poker face she hides

-written April 23, 2009

Again

I held an emotion for so long
Tried disregarding it, as I move along
Somewhere I thought, I belong
No one notice it, as time goes on

All lot of which were true
Eventhough it makes me blue
I kept everything inside hidden
Coz I know, I have to end it then

So I drop the feeling
Long before I came back
But with no warning
Now my armor's starting to crack

Again I'm here inside where
I don't wanna be trapped
A familiar sullen place
I'm trying to adopted

What do you held
That makes me vincible
Again I'm wrecked
For me, being so gullible

This is so disturbing
I can't believe I'm slowly breaking
But I have to end this anxiety
And again, stop this tearing agony

-written April 25, 2009

So bahala na kayo magassume kung ano, sino, kelan, saan at paano ha..
but I'll assure you I'm ok..

Runaway

Sitting on the sand by the shore
As I watch the sunset go
A magnificent sight to see
For a lonesome someone like me

Reading a book in a corner
In a cozy part of this busy diner
Here no one notice my presence
I can be me with no pretence

I had no idea where my heels are headed
Ranging this road I'm completely engaged
With an awesome beat from the car stereo
As the night goes by in this crazy metro

Staring at the dark sky above
Looking at those stars I loved
I wish I could go where they are
Leave and run away, that far

They’re comfort zone where I want to be now
A hiding place even just for a while
But reality brought me back to my senses
I'm here in my room, alone and homeless

-written May 03, 2009

Kamalayan

Saan ka nagmula?
Sundalong magiting.
Isang tanod ng sigwa,
May gusto atang marating.

Sumabak sa unos,
Nang walang pagaalinlangan.
Sa kalabay nakipagtuos,
Salat man ang kaalaman.

Sa bawat hagupit,
Nang sandatang tangan.
Marka ng pait,
Di malaman ang pinagmulan.

Atensyon ba o pagkakakilanlan?
Ang udyok ng kamalayan.
Upang tadhana'y iyong subukan,
Sa walang katuturang digmaan.

Tatanungin kita kaibigan,
Alam mo ba kung ika'y nasaan?
Gumising ka, ito ang mundong nilikha,
Para sa mga taong mapagkaila.

-written March 24, 2009

Bago

Mga tuyong dahon sa puno'y nalalagas
Nadating hitik sa bunga tulad ng kamias
Ang luntiang tumatabing sa iyong landas
Ngayo'y hindi maikubli ang iniwang bakas

Isang larawang kupas sa loob ng kahon
Kapirasong papel napaglipasan ng panahon
Dati rati'y iyong tangan at laging baon
Ngayo'y alaala na lamang na iyong kinuyom

Ang banayad na dampi nang sikat ng araw
Sa pagmulat ng mata'y kadalasa'y sumisilaw
At ang sigaw ng katauhang may tinig na bahaw
Ang gumising sa kamalayang may bagong pananaw

Sa pagpatak ng bawat oras na lumilipas
Kasabay ng kalendaryong unti-unting napipilas
Ang paglisan ng haring araw sa kanluran
Ay ang pananabik sa isang bukas na inaasam

Walang makapipigil sa paginog ng mundo
Pati narin sa lahat nang sumasaklaw dito
Isang araw, sa iyong paggising ay matatanto
Ang bagay na hindi natin hawak ay pagbabago

-written April 04, 2009
my-supposed-to-be-entry#2
para sa april poem contest sa symb kaso as usual DQ ako :rofl:

Persona

Alone in middle of a crowded room,
Where no one notice my shadowy gloom.
Anguish behind the sweetest smile,
Here I can pretend even just for a while.

Laughters and giggles that fills the air,
People talking and mingling everywhere.
I stare, leer and listen the whole time,
But no sound I could hear, just like a loud mime.

Red blood flows and fills our soul,
Separate lives used to be unknown.
Color of your voice, makes me wonder,
A known hymn that starts from a whisper.

Now I stand in front of someone so dear,
A face that is familiar but I quite fear.
A lost mourning soul, I choose to seclude,
Who holds the truth and the reality I elude.

-written March 19, 2009

She'me

Too careful and in control,
That’s what people know.
A lovely smile she shows,
To cover the face of sorrow.

You can never see her cry,
Even heave or utter a sigh.
Instead she giggles and laugh,
For her to shadow the other half.

She's a damsel in distress,
Inside austerity she possess.
But behind that toughness,
Is a shadow of sadness.

A person who's gentle but wise,
She's a plain Jane in disguise.
Who dares, look into her eyes?
To see the truth which there lies.

-written March 18, 2009
Who's she'me? Make a wild guess..

Bakit Ikaw

Ilan araw at linggo ang lumipas
Minsan ma'y alaala mo hindi kumupas
Kahit ilang ulit ko pangpilitin
Ikaw parin ang nanaising mahalin

Dumating ka ng hindi ko inasahan
Nang ang puso'y hindi handang masaktan
Ngunit ikaw ay aking hinayaan
Kahit ang puso'y iniwan mong sugatan

Hindi ko ginustong lumayo sayo
At sikaping tanggalin ka sa isip ko
Ngunit bakit ikaw parin sa aking paggising
Mga alaala mong bumabalik sa akin
Hindi ko ginustong lumayo sayo

Ngayo'y mga mata ko'y lumuluha
Kahit isipin kong hindi mo sinadya
Ang masaktan ako'y di mo ninais
Ngunit heto ako tumatangis

Hapdi ng sugat sa puso ko
Bakit di ko magawang paghilumin ito
Pero nais ko lang malaman mo
Mahal kita iyon ang totoo

Bukas haharapin ko na buhay ko
Na wala ka sa piling ko
Bukas hindi na kita iisipin
Tatangapin ko nang hindi ka sakin

-written Feb 14, 2009,
unang tagalog ko na tula.. request ni mhy gagawin ata itong song meron na actually demo si kamotekid thanx

may version na si KK eto oh..
http://www.imeem.com/people/wZttaJ/playlist/CK3_b9Q3/sesc-music-playlist/
yan din soundtrip ko sa blog ngayon hehehe..